Trying New Things…

Change is inevitable, we hear it all the time. We can’t experience growth of any sort without changing something to affect that growth. But change is scary, growth is scary, visualizing the unknown is, you guessed it, scary. But we still find it in us to move forward with change.

How do you personally like to experience change? Do you like to make big leaps or change things little by little? I always get big ideas that usually require big change and always think I can take it all on at once and (being the impatient person that I am) always want to make the changes as quick as possible. But I personally end up burning myself out super quick and then the changes that I had planned never become fully executed.

So because 32 years of life has taught me that I’m a huge stubborn creature of habit, I’m going to try changing just a few things at a time and see how I like it. Kind of like a test run.

There’s something I’ve been thinking of trying for a while but didn’t know if I would benefit from it I guess. I feel I’m at a point where I kinda don’t mind if I don’t make a huge profit from it, that if I have fun and meet new people and try new things, then that’s really what the goal is. The first change is…

I want to clarify I’m not giving up on Twitch. What I’d like to try is streaming once (maybe twice) a week on YouTube. And while I’m aiming to stream some of my favorite games there, I’d like to try streaming some games that are kind of different for me too.

Currently it is June 6th and Diablo IV just released. I played Diablo III 5 years ago and don’t remember a thing about the story but I do remember enjoying the game. I was totally lost, not knowing that there was anything else to do other than the story of the game and never went back to play anything else in it. It was the first video game I had played in years because I just graduated from college and had an endless amount of time on my hands while I looked for a job.

I had never played a game like it before and remember the cut scenes and visuals making my jaw drop because I couldn’t believe video games were capable of making visuals like that. It had been so long since I had played a video game I was still used to The Sim’s and Jak and Dexter visuals (basically pretty cartoon-like).

Even though I’ve played Diablo III I’m still nervous to make that “leap of faith” and buy Diablo IV because it’s still unlike anything I currently play or have played in recent years. I frantically look up reviews and YouTube videos trying to get an idea if it’s really worth it for me to buy and try out. Of course people love it but $70 (USD) is a lot to spend on a game you’re unsure if you wanna play for hours and hours.

But something keeps me thinking, “What if this is good change? What if you really like the game and become just as addicted to it as everyone else is?”. More than just wanting change, I’m a variety streamer. I enjoy playing games of all different genres.

I think what makes me most nervous about the game is all the abilities. How do I know what everything does? The skill tree, the different weapons. Sometimes reading the info on it all makes me so overwhelmed that I don’t even know how to comprehend the words I’m reading. I guess it’s kind of why I’m nervous to play Dark Souls because even though I love Bloodborne I still don’t know what half the items mean. I learn something new every time I play Bloodborne and I personally think that’s great, keeps the game a little fresh for me.

Anyways, this turned into a weird vent like post but I guess what I’m trying to say is, I’m gonna try streaming on YouTube and I might start with a different game. Maybe I’ll say “Screw it” and get Diablo IV and make a post about whether I’m glad I did it or regret it. I guess we will see..

Thank you for stopping by and reading!

_Heather.

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